Everyday is a constant question
Am I good enough for you all?
Am I good enough for myself?
How to be better still eludes me.
I’m trying hard, but not fast enough
You look down your nose
Cut off my conversation with your friends
Mock my work.
I would bow out if the moment arose.
Happily I would forget becoming more
And go back to a mere housewife
With no purpose but to create calm and then
I’m a rock drummer!
I create order in chaos
I smooth out dissonance
Leave space for silence
And play to my own rhythm.
I will not give in to the weak scared,
Fragile childlike ego-less inner being
That is driving this body,
I will steer to victory, the victory over myself.
I will beat the coward and conquer the future
With or without you